Why do we always seek a perfect life?
People always asked me; what is the ideal world you want to live in?
I always got confused about this question. I am living in an ideal world, and if I have to re- live it once again, I will still choose Lina’s character. I think God gave my spirit exactly what it needed at this time and space.
Darkness exists. Whether you like it or not. There is no such thing as a perfect life where unicorns Jump around. Yes, Maybe there are sheep’s jumping around, but I have never seen a unicorn before!
What am I trying to say here, is that we live in a world that contains darkness. It has a night that is dark. A space that is dark. And your thoughts can be so dark too. Some souls get dark with time, and we always refuse to speak about darkness or prepare the world for this visitor that we don’t like.
When your life is going against your force, you will find any external factor to make you forget or make you happy for a moment, like; drug addiction, alcohol and much more.
We don’t know how to deal with the dark side or life as dark unit itself.
Nobody ever taught us in school about darkness. Nobody ever prepared us to deal with nightmares.
Well the good part of the story, is you can always replace darkness with light, or let it pass through you without affecting you. And release it back to the universe where it belongs without harming you.
Darkness exists in every person, and light exists in every person too. It contains dark emotions like; your intentions, your anger, hate, jealousy and much more.
You cannot really see people’s intentions, but you can always feel it. Trust your unconscious feeling because it can travel through space and time and see through humans. Your eyes are limited, and they can’t see much. Use your feelings for clarity.
Life reward humans based on their intentions. You don’t really have to tell me what you think, in order to believe if you are a good person or not. You are the only one who knows your intentions and you are the only one who can replace it with good intentions.
There are always ways to replace darkness:
1. Watch your thoughts, is it telling you some bad stories about some people? Did you start to believe the stories in your head?
2. Watch how you feel around these thoughts? Do you feel consumed or tired?
3. Is there something you need to accept that you have been avoiding for a long time?
4. Do you truly love yourself? Or you always criticize yourself?
You cannot get rid of darkness without accepting it at the beginning. Yes, you need to welcome it, then let it go and it will leave you alone, at least for a while.
I had many nightmares in my life, and I was always afraid to go to bed, because I knew I will be facing a new nightmare tonight.
I forced myself not to sleep, but then one day I had enough, and talked to myself and said; Lina, do you want to face it, or keep running away from it? Face it Now. Accept it. Find a way to deal with it, because no one in this universe will help you from this but yourself.
I will not tell you in this article the secret recipe into getting rid of your nightmares, but maybe in other articles for sure ;)
Since that day I have been sleeping in peace and appreciating every dream that I have.
Every once in a while, when I get a nightmare visiting me, I face it and never try to run away from it.
You see, not everything is written in books and internet about life fully.
Everyone writes his/her own book based on their experiences in life, their values and their backgrounds. "You have to learn to see your life as a classroom" as Maya angelou once said.
Learn from your own experiences and accept anything that comes your way with pure LOVE, even darkness itself.
Lina Khalifeh
